5.30.2007

novelle

so here my new blog style. you like? its something fresh for the summertime! everybody needs something new and fresh and exciting. so here we go... from the pits of springtime comes GREEN and WHITE and GREY at sea and islands.

as well, you can now read my blog in hindi, if it so pleases you:

सो हियर मय न्यू ब्लोग स्टाइल. यू लिके? इट्स सोमेथिंग फ्रेश फ़ॉर थे सुम्मेर्तिमे! एवेर्य्बोडी नीड्स सोमेथिंग न्यू ऎंड फ्रेश ऎंड एक्ष्कितिन्ग्. सो हियर वी गो... फ्रॉम थे पिट्स ऑफ़ स्प्रिन्ग्तिमे कोमेस ग्रीन ऎंड व्हिते ऎंड ग्रे अत सा ऎंड इस्लान्ड्स।

i mean, who knows if that is right or wrong... but go google for trying!

5.26.2007

summer set-up


I've rearranged for summer cause I wont need my desk as much in the summertime.
and cause I want to look out my windows at the GREENness.
and cause strange room arrangements are just a Hammes thing to do.
so this is where I'll be...

5.22.2007

amaireach

I am tired of tomorrows. of always hoping for the next day to be better. On a blog that Trey recently referred me to, the girl wrote:

Waiting patiently to believe what I know to be true.

Those words have stuck with me. I am waiting-though not always so patiently- to believe I am supposed to be in Clemson this summer- to believe I am doing the right thing- to believe that I am so human as to miss my friends- and to believe I can belong in this summer crowd.

But, I am tired of waiting for the next day to be more fun, more productive, more life-goal achieving, more part-of-the-group. I am tired. of always feeling new. I want to be somebody's old friend- from years and years ago. Im tired of being moved around so much and never being a part of anything.

The worst part about this is that I know I'll leave here. I know I must move on to different places, new friends, strange jobs. Its a fact of life. and that fact leads me to not want to continue being open and vulnerable. I just want to curl into myself.

Amaireach- I am tired of tomorrows.