would you be willing to sacrifice your body- over and over again- if, through it, you could bring some greater good? how are we to bring good into people's lives? how are we to preach forgiveness if we cannot even forgive ourselves? what if we dont have anything to forgive?
i know these thoughts are vague. but i fear going into specifics. i fear putting the images in my head to words. what future implications could they carry? i have been taught not to voice my fears. but this is more a fear that i lack faith. so i will share- though it terrifies me.
rape. the chances of being raped in africa are ridiculously high. its one of the strongest weapons. how can i ask woman after woman to embrase Jesus and to trust that HE will vindicate them? how can i ask this of someone if i have not been forced to do such a thing? that is just straight up naive. and yet, the thought terrifies me because i dont know that i could trust, love. and definitely not forgive. how can i share a faith i do not even live?
who do i think i am? what do i think i know? how can i ask something that i wouldnt even be able to do? but could i? would i?
or would i be like nicole kidman in dogville- where i thought i would be able to forgive and i couldnt?
do thoughts like this even matter?
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