never thought they'd mean everything to me

i am leaving charleston in two weeks. it has been a glorious month of playing with friends and family. a wonderful vacation after too much school and too much work and too much stress. i have slept, read a huge book, bummed on the beach, went shopping, watched a ton of sports, painted and decorated and shopped more, missed friends, blogged to Aileen, had long phone conversations, talked on AIM with Stu and Kate, caught up with emails, drank coffee, drank more beer with my brothers, had girl sleep overs, taken pictures, dreamed big dreams, recovered chairs, had lunch dates, enjoyed my old church weekly, played on the beach again and again, went to concerts, played frisbee on "drift concrete," had parties for lil bro and dad, watched tiger dominate once again, watched miami beat florida state in baseball, watch euro 2008- HUP HOLLAND HUP!!


i will miss this place. it will forever be my home, no matter where i move to. and i will miss my family- though they dont think i will. but i have many places to live in and much to learn before i can enjoy Charleston fully. doesnt mean i wont visit and doesnt mean i wont be homesick. im homesick just thinking about leaving. but its what i need to do right now. if i dont leave now, i may never be able to. its no small thing to leave one's home. its like leaving pieces of yourself in different locations all over the world. why am i called to travel so? will i break apart and shatter so there is nothing left?

it hurts.